do i rock? or what?

why is it all the guys i fall for i have pretty much no chance with and the ones i do have a chance with i honestly never see or talk to .. i dont understand how i can hardly no someone and yet still feel so strong for them anywho i need a boyfriend...

um yea so i was thinking i was moved on from this one fella but yea clearly im not since i realized how aften in a day i DONT think of him .. which is like never.. im constintly thinking of him and its killing me.. whatever right i really need to move on.. no he needs to get a girlfriend so i cant just be like.. no point in this right.. so yea any signle girls want a perfect guy whose cute, funny, smart.. just plan RAD let me know ill hook you up.. well i probably wont hook you up but ill try! ahh really growing up sucks i just want to be young again.. at least when i was young and guys hated me i didnt care now its just hell.. i just want him back. i love him.

sweetest weekend .. well yea went bowling friday but yea we were going and my mom just decided that tyler could drive us so we went to his house then bowling then back to his house which is thee prettiest house i ever did see! then we chilled in his room then saturday salvation army hunting with tiffany and margaret and then sunday birthday party for my cousin! fun fun ..

winterfest was last night jessica went it was fun.. well not really ... next dance... homecoming... better be better!

ive concluded today that im boyfriendless and ill stay that way for a while to most likely and its cool im over it i guess anyway. um yea so besides likeing the same guy im starting to like somene and this is a very bad situation and its my little secret ill tell NO ONE.. crazy. anyway nothing really more.. mom made a friend whose a lush and stoner so great! shes my next door neighbor!! woo fucking hoo .. shes a very very nice lady though. i just dont like the way mom is around her. oh well it gets mother out of the house fortunaly. haha well im done

florida was great! not what i thought but very very fun ... anyway alot of stories but i gotta put the bathroom one on for bailey okay.. ready...set goo!!


so i had to go to the bathroom really bad and so my dad and i pulled off the highway somewhere in Georgia and we to the shell gas station but the bathrooms where full so we left and ran across the street and this gas station had bathrooms with working toilets but they were outside and so my dad goes in the guys and i go in the womens and there are too stalls so i see the first one is gross like toilet paper is like stacked up like a foot high of toilet paper that is like just unravelled from the despencer thing anyway so im like ew ill go in the other one well this big black women is in there so im like okay ill go in the nasty one i guess i can wash my hands well i open the door and hit someone on the head.. they were poop.. their were bending over like resting their arms on their legs well their like OUW that was my head i was like OH MY GOD IM SO SORRY .. so then the big black women came out and so im like okay how am i supposed to pee with someone pooping next to me? so then the women and the person next to me start talking im the person next to me sure had a deep voice and i was like okay some black women have deep voices right? well turns out it was a man ... a MAN ... A MAN!!! a man? a man in the bathroom? what the fuck? okay so im like i cant pee with a man next to me so i froze up and i put my pants on and the women was like whats that stinch whats that stinch im like oh god! and ran out side with out washing my hands and i was like dad... i gotta go soo bad.. i literally cried i had to go so bad i thought i was going to pee my self.. haha anyway thats all really i finally went pee and now i gotta go bathe myself ... kbye